Poems

Love is a Choice

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I had a recent conversation with someone, and there I realized something about love… that it is a choice, more than a feeling. 

 

Love is not a feeling, but a choice

It is mostly about commitments, more than the joys

Love is about making decisions,

To love her for and against whatever reasons.

 

Love is a choice because the euphoric feelings may fade away,

But it’s up to you if you choose to continue and stay.

Love is a choice because the butterflies may have fluttered away,

But it’s up to you to bloom flowers for them and make a way.

 

Love is a choice, and not just an emotion

Feelings are fleeting, and we don’t have love potions

Which could bring back the excitement and sparks between you

It is your choice to decide if your love is really true.

 

Truth be told, it’s not your choice who you’re attracted to

Your differences aren’t your fault, even the everyday- “argue”,

But it’s your choice to endure and let your heart bleed,

Because it’s your choice to whom you want to stay in love with.

 

Again, Love is a choice, and not a feeling

Because these are fleeting and you”ll never know how much time is stealing

It is up to you to make choices that knowingly hurts

It is your choice to be brave enough to try, and never fret.

 

Love is a choice, this is what I believe

I won’t let these feelings try and let myself get deceived

Love is a choice, this is what my heart roars

And I choose to love someone, forevermore.

 

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Poems

Evanesce

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“Yesterday was your confession of love

Til’ that day, I never knew what I had

But then you made me feel how it feels to be treasured

How valuable I am to you, nothing could ever measure.

But today my mind and heart argued

I suddenly asked what is bad, and what is good?

Could this love truly last a lifetime?

Or this would disappear and fade through time?

Now I foresee this love won’t follow

Wherever our hearts go, this love would only bring us sorrow

Cause’ baby you know I need an assurance

And I have to know til’ when is this love’s endurance

And if ever it’s gone, where could I borrow?

Just for me not to ask you-

‘Baby would you still love me tomorrow?'”

-jam.c

Book Reviews

Zillow Stone and the Unholy One (BOOK REVIEW)

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Title: Zillow Stone and the Unholy One

Author: Brindi Quinn

Rating: ★★★★★ 5/5 stars

*The author of this book sent me this paperback copy in exchange for an honest review, so don’t expect anything less than that. I will always give an honest review, be it a positive one or a negative one.*

Synopsis:

In Eastern City, metropolis of wind and rain, a deadly game is about to begin . . .

Beneath the boy’s thumb, my blood bubbled in reaction to the implant. Hot stinging moved through my flesh for a helping of seconds before subsiding. The boy felt it too, for when it was done, he removed his thumb and inspected my hand. Beneath my skin was a green glow, roughly the size of a coin.
It was done.
Their people were born with extreme lust for ours, and just as my grandfather had warned all those years ago, one of them had come for me.
I, Zillow Stone, had been marked by an unholy one.
While I digested the truth of it, the boy leaned over, placing his lips nearly to my ear, and whispered, “Run.”

REVIEW:

I gave the book a perfect 5 stars because:

  1. Concept- the concept is very unique and exciting to read. All the actions and everything are worth reading. The concept where there are prags and markers who are to kill each other.
  2. Characters- Zillow Stone is my favorite, she is a tough and intelligent girl. At first, i thought there would be something cheesy between Zillow and her marker (well, let’s see) but as I turn pages, I want her to be with Theo. They are the exact opposite of each other which would really make a good love team.
  3. Settings- Every place was dreamy for me. I could imagine if not all, at least most of them. They really fit the dystopian novel.
  4. Cliffhanger- Oh gosh, this is the best of all! The cliffhanger made me feel so curious and made me want to read the next. Brindi Quinn did such a great job to make readers read every part of her book. Amazing and Good Job!

Overall, i really liked this book. I recommend it to almost all readers especially those who love high action books.

To the author, thank you for making this book and sending it out to me. Again, good job and hands up for you.

Thank you for reading.

Creative Writing

The Light Within Me

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“People are like stained – glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.” ―Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

I walk.

Still walking.

I stopped.

The view of something scary stopped me from walking, a dark place with so much cross around it. I don’t know what are they, i don’t know where I am, I don’t know who I am.

I just don’t know.

The darkness entered my soul within me until i feel afraid.

I keep on walking.

Finally, I saw a mirror.

I stepped in front of it, I looked at myself and suddenly… the place around me brighten, sparkled, and was lighten up.

Still, i don’t know what happened. But i come to realize that the light which erased my fear is nothing, i mean, no one else but me…

THE LIGHT WITHIN ME.

Everyone has darkness within themselves.

“Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.”
Mark Twain

Most of the time, there are hundreds of possibilities that we would feel lonely. We would feel worthless and darkness would enter our hearts and would filled it with their horror.

But what are the chances that during that darkness time, we would find ourselves lighten up within?

Thousands.

Nothing else could stop darkness but light. No one else could stop them but us.

During the darkness times of our lives, we should be strong. For this is the time when we could prove ourselves. This is the moment when you could reveal yourself. Everyone has light within them, this is their true personality. This is the light that could outshine the darkness when it filled their hearts.

During this time, you could never lean to anyone but yourself. You won’t see the people who used to stand beside you during the happiest times of your lives, some would be gone. The only way out is following yourself and letting your light guide you to the best place you could ever go to. Just trust them.

Finally, i’ll tell you this. Don’t let this darkness be your shield, or a place to where you could hide. Instead, treasure it because we are what we are because of it, or spite of it. Darkness is just simply piece of a whole. Don’t let this time down you. Never surrender, you got light within you!

Response to daily prompt: Darkness

 

 

Book Reviews

Somewhere in Between (Book Review)

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Title: Somewhere in Between

Author: Katie Li

Rating: ★★★★ 4/5 stars

*The author of this book sent me this paperback copy in exchange for an honest review, so don’t expect anything less than that. I will always give an honest review, be it a positive one or a negative one.*

Synopsis:

Two friends find a portal to another dimension and use this “in-between place” to avoid the stress of their everyday lives. What they don’t realize is that every time they enter, they alter reality.

Pseudo-punk Magnolia and underachieving gamer-geek Rom are two unlikely friends who only hang out during their walks home together after school. When they find the a portal that leads to different worlds, they use the “in-between place” as an escape from their lives in high school, then later, after college.

Their visits through the portal bring them teetering along a tight-rope of fantasy and reality, where they don’t always believe what is in front of them, not even their feelings for each other.

The book is about changes—the ones that you can control, and the ones that you can’t. It’s about commitment and friendship. It’s about the stages in between where you have nothing but the unknown ahead of you.

Inspired by the work of Haruki Murakami and films like Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind, Somewhere In Between is metaphysical coming-of-age story about defining love and finding yourself.

REVIEW:

This is the hardest book to review I’ve encountered, so far.

This is a story about two friends wanting to somehow, escape each of their reality because of stress. Until they found somewhere they could find themselves, and their true feelings toward each other.

At the beginning, I don’t really know what’s coming next. I thought it’s about a typical high school love story, but as i kept on reading… I’ve found out that it’s so much more than what i thought.

I love the story, it’s very magical and it fits my imagination. I could imagine everything, from the door, and inside of it. I hope this book comes with a movie, i think it would really make a good one!

I find each chapters exciting, that’s why i keep on turning pages. I am always excited to know what the in-between place could show us, readers.

Why didn’t I give the book 5 stars?

First of all, I din’t like how the time jumps in the story without informing the reader. It is very weird and confusing. It made it hard to follow the story.

The characters do have chemistry, but i want more of them. I think the book focuses on the in-between place, instead of the characters. I need more explanation about how and why the characters turned out to this and that.

I’m concerned to other readers who would ask questions like “NO, WHAT? WHY? WHAT HAPPENED? I DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT PART! HEY, WHEN DID THAT HAPPENED? WAIT, WHAT?!” as they read the book. I don’t recommend this book to readers who are certain they would ask something like that.

I understand the story (perks of being a writer, too) but some parts are just too hard to follow. Example, the ending part doesn’t get to me well. It doesn’t strike me the way I want it to. I feel like there are some parts missing. Maybe because of the past to present to future part of time.

Overall, I rate this book 4 stars. Despite of the negative things, I think there are still a lot of positive things about this book that could outshine the negative ones.

Thank you for reading!

Book Reviews

Boy Band (REVIEW)

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Title: Boy Band

Author: Jacqueline  E. Smith

Rating: ★★★★★ 5/5 stars

*The author of this book sent me this paperback copy in exchange for an honest review, so don’t expect anything less than that. I will always give an honest review, be it a positive one or a negative one.*

Synopsis:

Sam Morneau is Melissa Parker’s best friend. He’s also a member of The Kind of September, basically the hottest boy band on the planet.

After two and a half years, Mel is all too familiar with the day-to-day occurrences that come with being a member of the band’s inner circle, including hectic schedules, passionate fans, and gossip-mongering celebrity girlfriends.

Now, with the release of the group’s third album just weeks away, their lives have never been crazier and Mel is doing everything she can to keep up, all the while trying to cope with the ridiculous rumors that follow the band everywhere they go and pretending that she isn’t harboring a secret and hopeless crush on Sam.

It’s weird enough being in love with your best friend. It’s even weirder when the rest of the world is in love with him, too.

REVIEW:

I had so much fun reading this book. This is the kind of book i usually enjoy. A book with such a cute and adorable characters. All i could say about this book is that it’s truly cute. I’m so glad i read it during vacation, it erases my boredom.

Honestly, i don’t have a thing when it comes to boy bands. But “The Kind of September” changed the way i think about boy bands. They are very cute and adorable. I love all of them, from the stars to the inner circles of the band, they are all so much fun to read.

This book surprised me, i never thought of liking this book so much as I liked it now. The typical love story of bestfriends made this book seems shining. The situations, the conversations, all are very understandable. I mean, there are books i just can’t get over with, not because they are so good but because there are parts i couldn’t understand.

“It’s weird enough being in love with your best friend. It’s even weirder when the rest of the world is in love with him, too.”- Jacqueline Smith

Okay, been there, done that. I used to have a crush on my bestfriend and i feel sorry for Melissa. I understand what she’s feeling, the anxiety, the brokenness, i could feel right through her. At the same time, i felt very happy when she and Sam just kissed. I felt so happy it made me want to celebrate!

Reading this book would make you wish having a Sam Morneau  in your life, or a Melissa Parker. They are both such an amazing characters! Not just that, this would make you wish no person like Tara Meeks will enter your life. Only readers would understand.

Just a fun trivia, i finished the book without even having a bookmark. Does it make sense? Yes, because it just proves that this book would make you get hooked up reading, you won’t be needing any bookmark at all!

Again, this book is perfect and amazing. You would want to read some more of the author’s works. Ms. Jacqueline Smith is truly amazing, she must be thankful of having such talent to capture the hearts of every readers through her words. Because really, she captured mine. And i’m sure your hearts would feel the same way, too.

Thank you for reading!

Creative Writing

Perfection is an Illusion.

CREATIVE WRITING: Perfection

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‘perfection’
noun per·fec·tion \pər-ˈfek-shən\

-the state of condition of being perfect

“In this world, perfection is an illusion.”― Tite Kubo

Flaws.
Wound.
Imperfection.

They are something I would never exchange with anything in this world. For they are one of the reasons why I keep on striving. We keep on working so hard, just to omit these things, and meet the so-called PERFECTION.

But my fellows, don’t get fooled. Perfection is an illusion. You’re not working hard for this, but you’re doing whatever you do to make yourself better. In fact, seeking perfection will lead you to nothing. The more you seek for it, the less you achieve your goals.

Wanting perfection will make you build endless boundaries without you knowing it. Many opportunities will come for you, but you will keep on declining them because you always think they would never be enough. You are never contented. The truth is, there wouldn’t be enough because in this world, nothing is perfect and nothing would fit to your desires. Because you, yourself will never meet your goals when you keep on searching for a non-existing thing… Perfection.

The search for perfection is distracting, and will lead you to despair. Just like how you try to make your future better, and think of what will it offer, you’re forgetting to live the life you’re currently living now.

Remember, don’t let your flaws down you, instead, let them make you someone extraordinary and unique. You will never taste the happiness in perfection, because if you think the other way around, then you might want to consider your happiness as a non-existing thing. There’s no such thing as perfection. Strive for continuous improvement, instead of perfection. Don’t be perfect, be better!

 

Creative Writing

Mysteries from Childhood

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Creative Writing: Childhood

“Mommy, why does the moon follow us wherever we go?”
“Sis, why do stars are visible only at night?”
“Daddy, why can’t I hold the sun with the palm of my hand?”
“Bro, can I reach the heaven someday, when I get older and taller?”

You. Do you remember?

Do you still remember yourself asking these questions, thinking of world as a place of mystery? Like a Christmas present from your mom, waiting to be unwrapped.

I do. 

As a child, we have a never-ending questions waiting to be answered. And as we grow up, little do we know that these questions are answered, one by one. Maybe, that’s one of the reason why children are so eager to grow up. They are in need of knowledge, something that could turn their mysterious world into a world filled with many chances and opportunities.

And as a child, we don’t know how challenging and cruel the world could be when we grow up, making us regret and miss our unforgettable childhood.

When you used to play dolls and cars, now you play the game of life.

When you used to listen to bedtime stories, now you listen to endless rumors about you.

When you used to cry because your playmate took your toys, and now you cry because your partner was robbed and taken away from you.

When you refused to sleep because you aren’t tired yet, now it’s the other way around.

When all of your fears could be swept away with a kiss.

When your dreams and reality were one and the same.

Innocence turns to Guilt.

Joy turns to Misery.

Smile turns to Frown.

Everything has changed. And you wish they didn’t.

Do you still remember?

Playing, and playing, doing everything you want. Not caring about what others may think of you. Until you grew into adolescents. You fell and was forced to live a world filled with restrictions and rules, with so many Do this and Don’t do this. You are restricted to cross the bridge you want to go. Beautiful things are hidden behind the walls and boundaries the cruel world has made for us, for adults. You stopped asking questions, and let the society enter your mind and answer the questions for you, and not even considering what you think of it.

These are things you wish to get back. These are things you thought were gone. But they didn’t, because these childhood memories are tucked in the safest corners of our hearts, living and forever will be.

Children, enjoy your childhood when you still can, treasure them for these memories would be the precious possession you could have when you grow up. Don’t worry about the future, because the day you fret about you in the future is the day you will have to left your childhood behind. Leaving it behind, replacing them with what you thought is a beautiful thing but in fact, an illusion. Go on, learn, ask questions, and explore the mysterious world. Uncover the mysteries by yourself and consider it an adventure.

Adults, I wish you good luck to the challenges you’re facing and you will have to face anytime soon. Never forget your childhood, the smiles and innocence you used to have. Cherish them, and let them live forever. If by now, you still cannot figure why stars are following you everywhere, research and explore. Just like a child uncovering all the mysteries of life.

Creative Writing

Stars won’t go dim.

CREATIVE WRITING: Countless Stars

“How many times did you forgive?”
“I don’t know, I’ve lost count.”

I am Stella, an admirer of stars, with stardust in her eyes. Research the origin of my name, and you’ll know (real quick) that I love the fixed luminous points in the night sky called stars. Recently, i had a research about my name and i come up with an interesting fact-‘Stella’ means ‘star’ in Latin.

One day, I had a conversation with my science teacher. She’s my all-time favorite because she admired me for loving stars.

“Why do you love them?”
“I just do.” Honestly, i don’t really know the reason why and when I started having an interest with them. But there’s one thing comparable with stars…
“You can’t just be interested with something without any reason, come on, spit it out!”
“Really, i can’t think of any reason. But I guess there’s something a little comparable with them- forgiveness.

When I was young, I had a huge anger towards my mom because of a certain reason. I used to be a prisoner, captivated by my own anger and pride. It took so much time for me to forgive her. But i’m thankful that time has come and forgiveness came to my heart. I let my grudge down and gained so many things i never thought I could.

Space
Once you let go, you’ll feel so relieved that your mind’s finally cleared. You’ll stop thinking of things and spinning them round and round until you feel bad of yourself. Your mind will have space where happy memories could be placed, replacing the bad ones.

Gratitude
Once you forgive someone, you’ll be able to see things clearly. You’ll finally realize all the things they’ve done for you, and that all of the things you thought were bad are in fact, good for you. You’ll finally be able to tell him/her “Thank You”, instead of “I hate you!”

Freedom
Anger will make you feel like a prisoner. Caged into evilness and revenge. But once you forgive someone, you’ll realize you’re not doing it for them, but for yourself. You’re forgiving them not to set them free, but to set yourself free from negative perspective you built for yourself.

“How do you say so?” My teacher asked me, I can see through her eyes that she’s confused.
“There are a lot of stars that you’ll lost count once you tried counting them. Just like forgiveness.”
“How many times did you forgive?”
“I don’t know, I’ve lost count.”

See, there are a lot of stars. Look at the vast skies, and you’ll see hundred, thousands of them. Forgive a lot, as many as the stars. And once you forgive, you’ll see the memories on a very bright star, saying “You’re free.” Don’t stop forgiving, as the stars won’t go dim.

 

Book Reviews

A Mess of Reason (REVIEW)

Author: A. Wilding Wells

Rating: ★ 1/5

Synopsis: Scout Steele is the country music star People magazine just voted ‘sexiest bachelor’. More than that, he’s my best friend forever, my bff. OK, not quite my lingo – I’m almost thirty. We’ve shared everything, and then some. Even crossed the line a few times, but not too far. Well, mostly…. He’ll go to the end of the world to make me happy; he knows me inside and out. Except, that is, my most intimate and darkest defect; this he must never know. It would ruin us, and ‘us’ is the only thing that matters. So I’m marrying someone who doesn’t care about the truth or, frankly, even me.” “She’s twisted and sexy as all get out. Brilliant and beautiful, Tess Harlow is my best friend and my forbidden fruit – the woman I’ve always known and loved the best but can never have. Between my tours (and sexy groupies) and her man-juggling, we’ve never found “our time.” I love her to pieces but she’s about to marry the bane of my existence, rocker Creed Luce. He’s a walking cliche and he treats my Tess like hell – why she stays with him I still haven’t figured out. I am always there for her…but not this time. Tess deserves better, way better, my better. The door is half-open and I have my ways. Her best friend is about to become her best lover.

REVIEW:

From chapter 1, until the last chapter I was very lazy reading this book, i don’t know why… Maybe because of the sexual words that I can’t even understand. I have read books with contents like that, but this book is different! Imagine a book with lines very sexy and awkward, i mean all of the lines are! It’s depressing, and i feel like i can’t continue this anymore. The first time I saw this book, i thought this would be good for me. But it isn’t, it made me feel bad for reading the book. I expected too much, maybe because of the cover (oops, sorry).

CHARACTERS

Tess– Oh come on! She’s very irritating. If she would ever come to life, i don’t want too see her, ever! She’s a cry baby, crying over things she did herself, crying over small things. And, sorry to say this but she’s very stupid. She wants to be with Scout but then she’s getting married. Isn’t that stupid? She’s always saying that she wants to be with her bestfriend, but that’s what they’re doing right now. They act like their couples, and when something’s about to happen between them, she’ll start to cry and resist as if she doesn’t want something like that.

Scout- I hate him. Really. Aside from his name (He has the same name with a character from To Kill A Mockingbirdthat i respect so much), i hate him for being such an opportunist, taking advantage of his best friend’s weak character just for him to do whatever he wants from her. He’s the type of guy you would never want to date, the type of guy you would want to kill (am i too harsh? sorry).

They are the best example for the term ‘(Best)Friends with Benefits’. And it made me hate them more!! Ugh, i’m done with this.

PLOT

Honestly, i really like the plot. At first, I thought it would turn out nice because of the plot which is about bestfriends with feelings toward each other, have no courage to let their feelings touch each other’s hearts. It was a good plot. I like it, really, but you know what i didn’t like? The execution. If the author (A. Wilding Wells) just executed the story better, i’d probably rate it 5/5.

Thanks for reading.

Note: To the readers, this review is only an opinion of mine, don’t be hesitant to read the book just because of my low rating. Try to read it and let me know what you think. To the author, i respect you so much, and i’m so sorry for giving a low rating, but as promised, I gave an honest review. Thank you for giving me the chance to review your book.